well
i just ate dinner
alone
:<
hhahaha
then washed up
then while i was washing
i was like
woah maybe when i grow up
ill be liddat
alone in the kitchen
washing
who noes?
the future is like mystery
i dont ever wanna confront it
we're all fighting to change the future
with every move we're making
yet
we hate it\
we hate the fact we have to grow old
we hate the fact we have to die
we hate the fact that the ppl we love will oneday leave us
its just
a matter of time
in the future
but what is the future?
ur future could be a min
an hour
2 days

3days?
perhaps i wouldnt have a future
if i had died then
then probably everything now
would have changed
maybe ppl are happier
things are better
idk
who knows?
the future
is just
like paper
we write
on that piece of paper
but the pen
seems to move by itself
writing its own history
in pandamen(lol)
its said
人生如棋，棋如人生
我再下我人生中的棋
you probably can control ur own pawns
but the opp
thats fate
coincidences
stuff
like
evil
temptations
lose out
you die
u lose
u get ur ass kicked and
wow
ur on the ground
i dont ever wanna make the mistake
the one that goes crashing down
i once
had been
sad
another opp
i just gotta slowly find my way around the losing battle
win with my wits
and
perhaps abit broken hearted
because theres nothing
after the battle
nothing
we just gotta think man.
live the life.
and
yeah.


8:21 PM