such a cycle of self devastation
i study so FUCKING hard
woo i get owned
fucking hell man
i dont believe it
i mean
i can do
i can do everydamnedquestion
but why when im fucking during the test
i cant fucking do it
im such a dumbass
every single ppl can beat me
i tot i was good
oh no
fuck no
there are always better out there
no matter how damn hard i study
no matter how much i spend in books
i cant be the best
never willl
if im not the best
i can hardly get my six points
and wooo iget disowned
then i will fuck myself
its such an outstanding word
fuck
im not gonna use it anymore


but i have no idea
wad i can do
what is diff between me and those who get higher than me?
i dunno
i prob srudy the same hrs
or im just plain dumb
m-effing-dumb
wooooo
i suck man
i seriously dunno wad to do
i cant do anything
but watch myself screw up my life
every single day
i screw them second by second
i have no idea
what im going to do
what is going to happen
im just screwing my life
yeah





i still cant get it out
i think
im going crazy
my own expectations of myself






im just useless huh
hehe hahaaaaa




fcuk it


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